Not in the mood...

Hi2. today is tuesday, dah second day for this week but i'm still not in the mood. just wondering mcm maner agaknyer those yang bangun dengan semangat yang berkobar2 utk memulakan hari. hohoho,saya dah lamer xde mood mcm tu.last skali is ms i was in first year degree. then smpai skrg xde mood. setiap kali bangun tdo,mmg wajib i terfikir bnda2 yang negatif then terus malas nak g keje...ayoyoyo..i'm a negative person kan? 

then satu lg yg mnjadikan saya seorg yg negatif is saya belum dpt correction regarding my thesis from my supervisors. :(  Dr.s, pls, bgtau my correction awal2,xder lah saya xlalu makan,mandi xbasah and tdo xlena. serius ni,bukan main2.....hope to get the correction soon. ya Allah,aku harap aku dpt correction tu by this week and i pray so that everything will be going smooth.. amin..

wondering: u are a negative or positive person?

SweetHearts...

my first sweetheart, the one that cooled my temper & also the one yang create the tempered ...=p

 

  ~love you so much dear~

my second sweetheart, the one who always, always, always makes me smile, laugh, and cried in joys..

~ibu love you so much syg, thanks for cheer up my life. you are everything for me. 

I'll trade my life for your happiness...~

I'm okay for now, all the fake smiles and all the acts have been presented just now. I'll live my life. No more tears for those who are nobody. All the painful words had make me stronger and wiser. Watch out for a new me ladies!

wondering: of course, all praises goes to He, The Most Merciful, for always be with His servants...Thank you ALLAH...

double stress on friday. oh manusia..

semalam i dah stress,sgt stress smpai xde mood nak buat anything,this morning, baru nak built up the mood and br nak tenangkan fikiran dah ade pulak org messing around with me! damn! yeah, you heard me, damn!!!! i know la i'm working in islamic environment, very islamic environment. (yeah,kunun.i pnh ttipu,skrg br terbukak mata hati me.) i terfikir,knp all this kind of people suka sgt mengintai kesalahan org. suka sgt means, kalo u lalu depan dorg,dorg akan perhatikan u satu2, dr sekecil2 taik hidung u sehingga sebesar2 bnda. tgok how u dress today, bla bla bla. you know. i dont care anymore. yg aku tau skrg is, aku keje sbb nak cr rezeki yg halal and i will obey the truth Islamic rules not YOUR rules, yeah you, whoever you are.

wondering:sekali org dh cucuk me,that's it. you're messing with the wrong girl, lady!

thesis oh thesis

It's been few days since my last entry. been busy handling the family, job (career? or not?) and of course my lovely thesis. (kene puji sket,maner tau cepat lulus nti without too many corrections? ahh..konon!) hmmm...skrg i tgh completekan the appendix, sibuk scan the spectra and siapkan the content; arrange the topics and the pages. abstract,acknowledgment and the lists of figures and tables sume dh complete, esk i'm gonna make two copies, each copy for a supervisor.hmmmmm...takut sgt kalau tetiber dorg komen bnyk2,kene re-do or what so ever..i mmg xsempat dah. ya Allah,bantulah aku..permudahkanlah urusanku ini Ya Allah... -amin-

wondering: I think I am a superwoman. A woman who is also a WIFE, a MOM, a DAUGHTER, a TEACHER, and a STUDENT. How about you?

i'm stressed!

alhamdulillah handsome boy already recovered from the fever. his highest temp is 38.5degree Celsius. alhamdulillah we managed to prevent the temp to be raised up to 39 degree Celsius. nampak je thermometer indicated 38.5degree Celcius, me and mr.ayah panicked. terus masukkan voren (sap) then sponging. then the temp decreased gradually..lambat nak turun tapi after turun it maintained low (36.8-37.4degree Celsius). the phlegm and flue is still there,doc prescribed the antibiotic already and handsome boy has to finish it up since hingusnyer kaler yello;indicated infections. hmmm...actually,me &mr.ayah suspected that handsome boy macam xsehat caused he started to cough and had running nose since Sunday's morning.so we gave him pcm 3ml every 6 hours just as precautions, then all of sudden on monday's night (esoknyer Monday yang blues), he woke me up by calling 'bu..bu...', then i terjaga, i asked him what happened? then he looked at me like he was trying to say something,terus i pegang dahi dier,i was shocked sbb dahi and badan dier warm!so i took thermometer yg i mmg dh prepared kat bilik tdo incase this kind of things happen. i checked his temp and it was 38.5!!! so..the rest of the story i dah citer dlm previous entry. hmmmmm....,mmg kalo boleh i xnk handsome boy sakit,wpon ape2 sakit.let me the one yang rs all the pains..tapi sunnatullah, what i can do is try my best every time the moment come...aqil dear,don't worry,selagi ibu ada,i'll make sure u'll not alone..i love u so much...u are my responsibility, so i have to try hard sbb nti ibu xnk ALLAH tanyer knp x jaga amanahNya dengan baik...ibu syg aqil,so much..be strong selalu syg..

wondering:ada tips nak hilangkan kahak? huda,thnks for the tips!

aqil oh aqil 3...

now 5.30am. been awake since 1.15am. aqil woke me up coz his body temp raised up to 38.5 degree celcius..terus i kejutkan mr.ayah and told him about handsome boy's temp. we were panic for a moment, then i went downstairs and took sap, pcm liquid, koolfever and plain water from the fridge. terus msukkan sap dlm bontot handsome boy and at the same time bg pcm. i realized that i shudn't gave him both medicine but i was afraid that his temp might increase till 40 degree celcius...like before... :( after a while, mr.ayah told us to stay downstairs, he took the comforter and prepared the pillows and blanket so that handsome boy can sleep. so i took off handsome boy's shirt and started to sponge him by using the warm water as advised by dr.rosalie, pediatrician at smc. handsome boy doesn't show any sign that he's actually has fever. he kept running and watching cartoons, totally normal. but it doesn't makes me relieved even a sec. i kept sponging him and at the same time mr.ayah constantly recorded handsome boy's temp. after almost an hour, the temp started to decrease...alhamdulillah..i asked handsome boy to get some sleep, coz i'm afraid if he felt tired, the fever will come back. but he's totally in mood to play. aiyayaya. i told mr.ayah to go to sleep since handsome boy had already started to recover so i guess me handling him alone shudn't be a problem. after only few sec, mr.ayah dah zzzzz... tgallah me and handsome boy. so i placed him dlm buai, switch off the lamps then buaikan dier. it took me almost an hour utk tdokan dier..then i kept recording the temp..alhamdulillah,till now,temp dah back to normal...sukur ya Allah.....mr.ayah asked me whether i'm going to the office or not...well, i'm still worried that the fever might come back...mr.ayah volunteered himself to take care of handsome boy tomorrow but i'm really in dilemma coz mr.ayah's employer always reluctant to approve the leaves plus mr.ayah's leaves are not as much as me..i really want to stay at home, watch out for handsome boy but i got a lab tomorrow...hmmm...

wondering:kalo korang...what's gonna be the decision?

thesis & weekend

tomorrow is saturday!!! big clap!!! cuti! so happy. *huge smiley*

mr.ayah tnyer ''what's the plan?''

then i replied, ''no plan. need extra rest''
plus i need to finish up the writing process. next tues is the due date for thesis submission to my supervisors. mcm2 rs,risau,excited,takut....huhuhuhu.

risau kalo supervisors ckp '' ni xcukup ni..kene masuk lab lagi nih'' -komen itu paling xnak didengar. 

2nd komen yg xnak didengar ialah-

''u need to change the whole format, chpter ni xrelevan, chpter tu sepatutnyer make it short...bla bla bla'' 

and nih jugak i xnak dgr 

''hmmm...bnyak nak kene betulkan nih,rs akan amek more than 3 months nak betulkan.'' -

ahahaha,kalo lah docs' comment is from these three mmg i akan pengsan! 

aiyayayaya! xnak! xnak! xnak!

ya ALLAH..permudahkanlah urusanku..semoga aku lulus MSc sebab aku ade two biggest reason...

1) nak tgok mama tersenyum bangga sebab aku konvo lg 

2)ni juga token of appreciation for mr.ayah and my beloved son sbb bnyk berkorban while i'm writing and sibuk berkejar ke lab etc... 

amin ya rabbal alamin.....

wondering: mnyesalnyer xgunakan peluang yang ade dulu utk buat research betul2.skrg ade rs nak cont phd tapi takut xleh carry...kan3?