berusaha, syukur & redha..

hai. skrg dh 10.51 malam. as usual its just me,alone and awake. mr.ayah and handsome boi dh lamer smpai kat nilapura. td after dinner,mr.ayah tdokan handsome boi then tdokan diri dier pulak and me, continue routine yg dh 2mgu dipausekan iaitu: writing!! awal2 td mata mcm begitu besar & bulat, lps 10 minit, lps 20 minit, mata yang besar & bulat tu pon makin mengecil,sikit lg nak terpejam, nsb baik aku teringat aku belum save lg.uish,kalo ttdo sebelum save mmg nak menempah malang laa.maner xmalang,masa dh smkin suntuk nih. tik tok tik tok. mcm tgu bom meletup. adoyaiiiii....beratnyer batu tesis nih. biler la nak alih! hmmm.. k la,xmo citer psl tesis je..nak rest jap nih...hmmm...actually, my intention tls entry ni malam2 yg syahdu & sunyi di rumah me ialah sbb nak tujukan utk mr.ayah. rase mcm dh lamer x clarify & discuss from heart to heart with him. yelah,masing2 sibuk. balik keje dh ptg,after mandi,solat,makan,tdokan handsome boi, me ngn mr.tesis, wheareas mr.ayah ngn miss bidadari(in the dream okayyyy). esok we will repeat the same routine! again & again. so..rs mcm nak tujukan entry ni kpd mr.ayah...(warning: sesiapa yg alergik dgn kisah drama melayu/indon mcm dlm tv3 tu,baik xyah baca,kang korang termuntah hijau lak nti...heeeeeee) ----------------> to mr.ayah: first of all ibu nak ckp thnks sbb cuba utk tolong ibu buat keje umah & jg handsome boi (wpon kdg2 handsome boi yg jg mr.ayah). ibu tau ibu selalu membebel and merungut and mintak mcm2..kdg2 mx bnda2 diluar kemampuan mr.ayah....and ibu tahu ayah seboleh2nya akan cuba utk tunaikan sume tu smpai ada mase ibu tgok ayah susah hati.susah hati sbb berfikir mcm mane cr nak tunaikan my wishes. kdg2 ayah akan merungut''bestnyer kalo kaya raya kan yang,xyah syg keje,duk umah je jg aqil.'' biler dgr ayah ckp mcm tu,dtg rs sesal sbb mx mcm2 and merungut mcm2..(tp sekejap je lah,nti buat lg. =p) tapi ibu kan ego,so ibu akan balas ''mmg lah best,tp dh mmg ditakdirkan x kaya,kenelah usaha lebih sket'' then ayah akan diam... and at the same time, dlm hati ibu ada rs bersalah,sgt2..tp sbb ego yg setinggi everest,ibu diamkan je...so,ape yg ibu nak ckpkan ialah....''ayah jgn rs stress ats sume pmintaan ibu tu,itu sume hanya keluhan & luahan,sbb penat and stress keje..thats how i express my feelings: how tired & stress i am after been thru a very long and tiring day.kdg2 ibu luper ayah pon penat & most of the time ibu selalu push ayah over the limits...but most of the time jugak ayah akan diam je...and ayah akan blame urself sbb xdpt tunaikan the promises.smpai ibu selalu tgok muka ayah mcm ade 1001 kerisauan & stress..so skrg,ibu nak clarify ngn ayah..im happy now,blessed with you & handsome boi...with good health(gift from Him), we're both have great job, good food,nice house (wpon umah org! ahaha) and the most important thing yg u must always remember,we have each other and as long as we stick together,insyaallah,everything is possible. so after this ibu harap ayah xstress lg..duit,pangkat,harta..tu sume sementara,dunia ni sementara,yg kekal is akhirat...apa yang kite ade,thats enough for three of us.alhamdulillah..so,last words from me: be who you are, the same person i've fall in love 7 years ago! nighty nite sygs (to two most amazing guys in my life!)!!!

wondering:bersyukur diatas apa yg dimiliki skrg kerana esok lusa mngkin akan bbeza.. night sumer! isk3...sob3!! (mode:syahdu) =p (syahdu sbb lps post entry ni kene smbung writing,encik mata,sila bagi kerjasama ya!)